an update... life has been decent. untill i realized my bestfriend has left me... its something i have yet to get used too....

i hate summer.. i want to start school. i want to meet interesting people so the pain of not having a best friend doesnt hurt so much...

things were working out too...

i can't have everything i guess.

Currently Listening Like a Virgin By Harkonen, These Arms Are Snakes Touched for the Very First Time see related

everyone is a whore.we only care about what other people think of us.and obess over ourselves.and when things go wrong its the end of the world..

you people make me sick...the girls who hit on boys with girlfriends or the boys who hit on girls with boyfiends have no fucking respect.

I HATE EVERYONE... LOOK IN THE MIRROR YOU ARE A HYPOCRITE.

 im upset that he hasnt called me

I was talking to the girl I adore today.. She is wicked funny cute and everything..

But one thing really bothered me about her and I keep on cringing and almost feel like vomiting when ever I think about it.

She obviously doesn't floss.

Have I seriously become that obessed with teeth that I feel dirty when other people don't clean there teeth. I mean she has braces... But it looks like she ate a sandwich and like the bread just kind of stayed in between her teeth.. But its all brownish white so it is as if the bread has collected dirt over the time its been in there... Oh god I want to die just thinking about it...

And another friend of mine who makes fun of Gabby because she has "big teeth" well his teeth are pretty much green. And I watched him bite into a peice of bread and I seriously wanted to die.

Why does this bother me soo much? I'm certian it wouldn't bother the average person, or wouldn't feel so consumed by it. Oh yes thats right... I'm crazy.

Currently Listening You're a Woman, I'm a Machine By Death From Above 1979 Little Girl see related

PLAY THE LAST POLKA!

I never update this anymore... I am sorry but then again you probably don't care.

I am super sleepy... ITS GABBY DERICE'S BIRTHDAY!! FUCK YEAH!

No reason for this entry =/

I am a weak human being. Being held down by emotions.

Wishing for the ability to disregard others peoples judgements. What he thinks of me. What she thinks of me.

Wishing for the ability to remove attachment from people and not be able to fall in love.

I am tainted. I cry when I get hurt. And everyone tells me to put a band aid on and get over it. But no I am the type that pulls off the band aid and peck at the scabs to hopefully watch it bleed again.

I am a fragile creature of flesh and bones. Ignorant of ignorance. And blind to my own hate. I would like to say that I am a peaceful tolerant person.

But you took that peace away from me. This girl now sees the world is hopeless. We have become machines.

I wish I didn't care. I wish I didn't see. But I do, I refuse to accept.

And allow the world to come shattering down.

Currently Listening Marcy Playground By Marcy Playground Poppies see related